: firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
As quoted from dictionary.com.
(According to my experiences,) Trust is a building block of all types of relationship. Friendships, dating, marriages, business, doctor-patient, teachers-students; it's needed everywhere. When it's broken, it may lead to the end of the relationship. Without trust, suspicion arises. Suspicion causes anger, anger generates enmity, and enmity may result in separation.
I don't type this randomly. Because come on, it's been ages since the last time I wrote something and then I just came up with a title like this? No way. I was reading about arthritis when I decided to visit this page. Hmm. All in all, I actually just feel like updating my blog. Hehe.
I never had problems trusting people before. Until recently. Well, perhaps not so recent - it's been difficult for some months now. I don't care much about it because it's not like I am planning to be in some sort of committed relationship any time soon. However, it's starting to affect my life. I feel doubtful so easily about everything that I think I have some trust issues. I can't quite describe the matter that make me realize about having trust issues, though. But, it's really bothering me since it involves some of the closest person in my life. All I can say to myself and those closest person is: We can never have absolute certainty in life. Trust and risk of being hurt go hand-in-hand. It's a matter of time until we are ready to take the risk of being wounded and be okay after that. I just hope that all these storms will lead to a stronger bond between everyone involved. Fingers crossed?
All right. Enough with the heavy stuffs! I am currently preparing myself for the upcoming national exam- so called the UKMPPD (Ujian Kompetensi Mahasiswa Pendidikan Profesi Dokter) in the 2nd and 3rd week of May. Excluding trust issues, life's been good so far! I eat and sleep well, I run every now and then, I watch whichever K-dramas I feel like watching, and I study/read whatever topics that come across my mind.
Oh. I had my first toenail extracted yesterday. Thank God someone discovered anesthetic agents in the past, because it'd be awfully painful without them! Please grow fast, dear toenail, will you? Although I know it'll take months until I have a new one. Sigh.
I think some pictures will suffice to show what's been happening for the previous months:
(I just realized this is my first post in 2017!)
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| I and Sheirly, my 'running buddy'. Haha. It's my first 10k race. |
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| Last day as co-assistant. |
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| *The black box is intended to keep patient confidentiality* |
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| Anin and I. Some days after the announcement of her national exam! She made it! |
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| Lydia and I after our evening run. |
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| 5k fun race with Medical Runners. |
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| Someday after a short run |
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| Bella and I, attending our classmate's wedding party. |
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| Last! |
"For better or worse, our future will be determined in large part by our dreams and by the struggle to make them real."
Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi
Signing off,
Stevanie.
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